Holiday Drug Addiction and Alcohol Abuse

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Prescription drug use at an all time high amongst the American people. CALL US TODAY 949 292 2000

Oklahoma- The holidays can be a stressful and even depressing time for many people. Statistics have shown that drug abuse increases during this period as many can turn to drugs as a way to alleviate strain during the holiday season. However this year, more and more people are turning to prescription drugs with the abuse of these medications skyrocketing nationwide.  

According to data released by the Department of Health and Human Services, nearly half of the American population is taking at least one prescription drug, with one in six taking three or more. American people from all different socio-economic backgrounds are seeking out prescription medication for various reasons; some getting hooked after taking the medications for an illness or ailment and others who fall into the trap of addiction because they begin taking drugs to help them deal with some mental or emotional problem.  

“[Americans] have a penchant for going for the quick fix,” says Dr. Lon Castle, Senior Director of the Department of Medical and Analytical Affairs for Medco. “They want medications to treat their problems rather than trying diet and exercise or lifestyle changes, which might also be effective.”

According to Castle, prescription drugs may not be the best route to take when hoping to change your lifestyle physically or emotionally.  They may also be the least beneficial when it comes to health.  Although there are a number of prescription drugs which can assist an individual of poor health, many people are taking prescription drugs which do little to benefit them causing side effects; the primary one being addiction.  

“We’re taking drugs we really need and we don’t, but the body doesn’t know the difference when it comes to side effects,” says Dr. Mark H. Beers, professor of medicine at the University of Miami School of Medicine and editor-in-chief emeritus of Merck Manuals.  

The solution to better health may reside in a simple change in diet and exercise but it for those already addicted the only solution may be through successful rehabilitation.

One drug rehab center, Wits Inn Recovery is seeing a huge increase in the number of admissions into their treatment facility for prescription drug addiction. Derry Hallmark, Senior Director for Expansion for the center explains that this is not uncommon considering the number of people currently taking prescriptions.

“Of course if an individual has to take these medications for an illness or injury that’s one side of it,” says Hallmark. “But because of the addictive qualities of most prescriptions both doctor’s and patients have to be aware of how easily someone can get hooked on them. And, doctors have to watch out for those already addicted who are trying to get fraudulent prescriptions.”

Hallmark adds that drug rehab, like the type delivered by Wits Inn Recovery is effective in handling any type of prescription drug addiction and that the type of treatment that works best for prescriptions is one that handles both the mental and physical aspects of the problem.

For more information on getting help for you or someone you know who is struggling with a prescription drug addiction contact Wits Inn Treatment Referral today at 949 292 2000

Doctor Feel Good? Are doctors drugging or medicating?

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You have read the blogs and seen the placards a dozen times: doctors prescribe too many “drugs” for too many patients. Psychiatrists, in particular, are popular targets of politically motivated language that seeks to conflate the words “medication” and “drug”—thereby tapping into the public’s understandable fears concerning “drug abuse” and its need to carry out a “War on Drugs.” Misleading radio ads promise “drug-free” treatment of panic disorder (certainly possible, but not always achievable) and the Internet bristles with the phrase, “psychiatric drugging.” (My Google search pulled up 9310 results.) And, all too predictably, any physician who argues that psychotropic medication is often an effective and lifesaving intervention is hustled off to the perp line of “drug-company shills.”

All this will not surprise students of language, history, and philosophy. Those who control language are well positioned to control thought and behavior. If government officials can persuade the public that killing innocent civilians is merely “collateral damage,” they have gone a long way toward justifying the carpet-bombing of a village. If the forces of antipsychiatry—and they are alive and well—can persuade the public that psychiatry is “drugging” people, they have gone a long way toward marginalizing and discrediting the profession. To understand how powerful the words “drug” and “drugging” are, imagine the feckless campaign that would be waged if the perennial protesters in front of the American Psychiatric Association’s Annual Meeting carried signs that read, “Psychiatrists: Stop Medicating Your Patients!

Is this all merely a matter of “semantics” or—in the parlance of postmodernism—“competing narratives”? Is there any scientific reason to distinguish “drugs” from “medications”? And finally, what are our ethical obligations as healers when medication is administered, either voluntarily or involuntarily?

There is, of course, a qualified scientific case to be made against overuse of some psychotropic medications. In the first place, we have far too many medications that employ the same old mechanism of action, with only modest efficacy, and too many unacceptable adverse effects. The so-called atypical antipsychotics (AAPs) are good examples. With the exception of clozapine—and possibly risperidone and olanzapine, according to a meta-analysis—the AAPs are not substantially more effective than the first-generation neuroleptics.1 Meta-analyses, of course, must be viewed cautiously, since the studies that compose them may be flawed or biased, and unpublished “negative” studies may be excluded, as my colleague S. Nassir Ghaemi, MD, has pointed out.2 Thankfully, decreased rates of tardive dyskinesia with the AAPs are a bright spot in this otherwise dour assessment, and this is no trivial gain.

Nonetheless, the metabolic adverse effects of the AAPs (weight gain, lipid and glucose dysregulation, and so on) are substantial problems and call into question the goal of expanding the labeled “nonpsychotic” indications for these medications.3 We sorely need to escape from the “D2–5-HT2–me too” paradigm—antipsychotics that block mainly dopamine-2 and various serotonin receptors—and uncover more fundamental mechanisms of antipsychotic action. Critics of psychiatry are indeed justifiably skeptical regarding “Big Pharma’s” concerted efforts to expand the use of AAPs to the treatment of nonpsychotic conditions, for which effective and better-tolerated medications are already available. And yes—many of these same critics are quite properly alarmed at the decreasing use of psychotherapy in psychiatric practice.4

Meth Addiction and its effects

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Methamphetamine addiction can wreak havoc on your life and on the lives of those around you. Call Recovery Connection today at 949-292-2000 to find a treatment program capable of helping you though this difficult time. Your call is toll-free and confidential. We have counselors standing by 24/7, so call now and start on the path to recovery.

Methamphetamine Effects

Methamphetamine greatly stimulates a person’s central nervous system and the euphoric feeling can last anywhere from a few hours to as long as twenty four hours. Methamphetamine addiction can cause short and long term adverse physical and mental effects which may include:

  • Elevated blood pressure
  • Hypertension
  • Chest pain
  • Irreversible damage to blood vessels in the brain
  • Heart Attack
  • Accelerated heart beat
  • Stroke
  • Insomnia
  • Aggressive behavior
  • Jerky movements
  • Paranoia
  • Incessant conversations
  • Convulsions
  • Hypothermia
  • Brain damage
  • Malnutrition
  • Decrease in appetite
  • Increase in alertness
  • Increased physical activity
  • Increased irritability
  • Impaired immune system
  • Blood clots
  • Kidney disorders
  • Liver damage

Additional physical effects of methamphetamine addiction or abuse can include:

  • Slurred speech
  • Dilated pupils
  • Grinding of the teeth
  • Dizziness
  • Confusion
  • Respiratory distress
  • Sweats
  • Loss of coordination
  • Numbness

Methamphetamine Addiction – Psychological Methamphetamine Effects

The use and abuse of methamphetamine, or crystal meth, can cause effects which can often resemble several types of mental illnesses. These psychological effects may include:

  • Visual and auditory hallucinations
  • Obsessive behaviors
  •  Intense anger and paranoia
  • Panic attacks
  • Depression

Methamphetamine Addiction Withdrawal Symptoms

Withdrawal from methamphetamines is extremely uncomfortable and in some cases life threatening. Methamphetamine addiction withdrawal symptoms may include:

  • Drug cravings
  • Nausea
  • Irritability
  • Depression
  • Loss of energy
  • Insomnia
  • Sweats
  • Hyperventilation
  • Convulsions
  • Irregular heart beat

Because of the severity of this withdrawal, many people choose to enter detox or methamphetamine addiction treatment programs to assist them in coping with these symptoms. In addition to withdrawal, crystal meth can affect many other areas of a person’s life, including placing their job at risk, damaging their relationships and ruining their financial stability. Quality treatment in a professional addiction recovery center is required for a safe and effective recovery from this dangerously addictive drug.

Treatment for Methamphetamine Addiction

It takes time to resolve both the emotional and physical trauma people experience due to methamphetamine addiction. It also takes time to learn how to cope with the feelings the person has suppressed. This process is best undergone in a supportive therapeutic environment (www.wirecovery.com) which is designed to eliminate outside distractions. This allows the individual to focus on the key issues surrounding their recovery.

If you or someone you know needs help with methamphetamine addiction, or for immediate assistance in finding a reputable drug rehab center, please call Recovery Connection now at 949-292-2000. Help is available 24 hours a day, seven days a week and your call is toll-free and confidential. In a time when you feel so alone, it is important to know that there are people who can still help. Don’t wait – CALL 949 292 2000

Medical Marijuana Debate

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An Illinois House committee has forwarded legislation to the full House that would make marijuana for medicinal purposes legal in this state.

A number of states – Alaska, Arizona, California, Colorado, Hawaii, Maine, Nevada, Oregon, and Washington among them – have decriminalized marijuana when it is used for medical purposes.

Although more states are considering similar legislation, we urge Illinois lawmakers to defeat this measure.

We acknowledge that marijuana use likely has some medical benefits.  Limited studies have shown that it can improve conditions related to appetite loss, nausea and vomiting and help ease pain caused by arthritis and other conditions.

But other, FDA-approved drugs already are available to treat each of these ailments.

And smoking marijuana regularly also can cause serious health problems.  It can damage brain cells and cells in bronchial passages, which can hurt a person’s immune system.  There also is not enough data to conclusively show what the long-term health effects of regular marijuana use are.

Finally, any medical benefits that legalizing pot would have are outweighed by the societal problems it could create.

Marijuana is a gateway drug that can lead users to try more dangerous, addictive drugs, creating a greater burden on an already-stressed health care system.

Marijuana users who drive are impaired, increasing the chances of serious automobile accidents similar to drunk-driving related accidents.

Legalization increases the chances of the drug falling into the hands of children and others who don’t need it for medical reasons.  It also sends a message to children that drug use is OK.

Is Cocaine really all that bad for you?

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Cocaine

  1. Absorption
    Cocaine enters the body in one of three ways: injection, smoking, or snorting.

  2. Metabolism/Elimination
    Cocaine is a strong stimulant to the central nervous system. Its effects can last anywhere from 20 minutes to several hours, depending on the content, purity, administration, and dosage of the drug.

  3. Brief Overview
    a. Cocaine users become dependent on the drug.
    b. Crack is a form of the drug that is highly addictive.
    c. Exposure to the drug can harm a developing fetus.
    d. It produces short-lived senses of euphoria, the length depends on how the drug was administered.

  4. Short-term Effects
    a. May cause extreme anxiety and restlessness.
    b. May experience the following medical conditions: twitches, tremors, spasms, coordination problems, chest pain, nausea, seizures, respiratory arrest, and cardiac arrest.

  5. Long-term Effects
    a. May cause extreme alertness, watchfulness, impaired judgment, impulsiveness, and compulsively repeated acts.
    b. May cause stuffiness, runny nose, tissue deterioration inside the nose, and perforation of the nasal septum.
  6. Special Hazards Involving the Driving Task
    a. Cocaine may successfully mask fatigue, however, high dosages impair judgment and interfere with the ability of the driver to concentrate.
    b. Coordination and vision are impaired.
    c. There is an increase in impulsive behaviors with tendencies to take more risks and create confusion within the user.

  7. Effects with Other Drugs
    a. Additive effects are noted when cocaine is combined with over-the-counter products, such as diet pills or antihistamines.
    b. Cocaine taken with psychotropic drugs, especially antidepressants, can be extremely detrimental.
    c. A person who has extremely high blood pressure and uses cocaine may suffer from a stroke or heart attack.
    d. Some users combine cocaine with alcohol and sedatives to cushion the “crash” or feeling of depression and agitation that sometimes occurs as the effects of cocaine wear off.
    e. A person using cocaine maintains the illusion of being alert and stimulated, although physical reactions are impaired.
    f. Further research indicates that additive and antagonistic effects can be produced when cocaine is mixed with alcohol.
    g. If cocaine is used in high doses, as in the case of overdose, alcohol will probably have an additive effect on the symptoms that eventually contribute to death.
    h. When cocaine is injected in combination with heroin, sometimes called “speedballing,” there is an increased risk of toxicity, overdose, and death.

Heroin Addiction among young people

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Heroin Abuse in the United StatesBy Joan F. Epstein and Joseph C. Gfroerer

Numerous reports have suggested a rise in heroin use in recent years, which has been attributed to young people who are smoking or sniffing rather than injecting. The purity of heroin has increased to a level that makes smoking and sniffing feasible. The increased purity and concern about AIDS may be causing the shift from injecting to smoking and sniffing among heroin users. This paper examines these issues in addition to examining the prevalence of heroin use. It also describes the characteristics of heroin users and trends in heroin use.

The data presented here come from a variety of sources. One source is the Community Epidemiology Work Group (CEWG), a network of researchers from major metropolitan areas of the United States and selected foreign countries who meet semiannually to discuss the current epidemiology of drug abuse.1 It provides ongoing community level surveillance of drug abuse though the collection and analysis of epidemiologic and ethnographic research data. Another source is “Pulse Check”, a series of qualitative interviews with ethnographers, treatment professionals and law enforcement agencies which provide a quick and subjective picture of what is happening in drug abuse across the country.2 The heroin retail price/purity system is a statistical system using information gathered by the Drug Enforcement Administration. Purchases and seizures meeting certain retail level criteria ranges are averaged each quarter to produce a national retail purity figure and a retail price figure.3 A computerized data base program is used to record, collate, and display the results of qualitative and quantitative chemical analysis of all drug evidence submitted to the Drug Enforcement Administration Lab. Purity data are based on printouts of average purities for the 1-to-10 gram, 1-to-10 ounce, and 1-to-10 kilogram ranges.5

The Drug Abuse Warning Network (DAWN) consists of two data collection efforts: data on drug abuse deaths reported by medical examiners in participating metropolitan areas and data collected on drug-related visits to a national probability sample of hospital emergency departments.5, 6 Data on client admissions to specialty substance abuse treatment programs are obtained from the Treatment Episode Data Set (TEDS).7 TEDS, which is compiled by SAMHSA from reports from states, covers primarily publicly-funded treatment facilities and accounts for about half of all public and private admissions to treatment in the U.S. All states do not participate. The National Household Survey on Drug Abuse (NHSDA) is an ongoing national probability survey that provides information on the use of illicit drugs, alcohol, and tobacco in the civilian noninstitutionalized population of the U.S., 12 years old and older.8 Monitoring the Future (MTF) is an annual survey by the University of Michigan’s Institute for Social Research under a grant from the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA).9 Since 1975, it has surveyed a representative sample of all seniors in public and private schools in the coterminous United States. In 1991 MTF was expanded to include annual surveys of eighth and tenth graders. 

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CA Alcohol and Drug treatment centers, Wits Inn Recovery, Wits End Interventions, Treatment Referral

Heroin, cocaine, crack addiction rehab, addicts do recover in the 12-step programs, PTSD and ACA

Fun in the California Sun in addiction recovery, holistic healing and health drug rehabs
Narcotics Anonymous is pulling for you. Health and Fun in 12-step recovery

My name Loriann Witte CAC and my work is addiction recovery treatment and rehab marketing.  I am an individual expression of spirit in study as a human being.  My recovery from 16 years of drug abuse, alcoholism, and depression made a profound impression on this life.  I was born a lover of life to my most intelligent parents.  Real and perceived trauma turned my mind and heart into a pit of despair; this pain set up a compulsion, an obsessive searching for anesthetic relief.  I was looking for answers to my emotional problems.  A rebellious spirit overtook my focus.  I found recovery in 1987.
              My recovery passions have included working as an interventionist, at one time for a treatment center who advertised on the A& E Intervention show.  I am a certified alcoholism councilor CAC.  I have been the cook, and the Program Director; cleaned up detox fall out and have held the title of CEO.  Regular attendance of Alcoholics Anonymous, Narcotics Anonymous, Adult Children of Alcoholics, and the Center for Spiritual Living of Capistrano Valley highlight my personal life.  Right now I have a radio show on BeachcitiesRadio.com called Wits End. I am writing my bio for your review inquiring about the Career Opportunity you have advertised for Business Development Representative.  You can see my videos and more about my work with in my Resume with includes many attachments.
www.WIrecovery.com 949-292-2000 info@WIrecovery.com my current Company is Wits Inn, & Wits End Interventions. Treatment Referral
Loriann Witte CAC           949-292-2000     Certified Addiction Councilor
     1989 graduate of Saddleback’s Human Services Dept.
     Alcohol & Drug Studies 

Continuing Education Units maintained for the past 21 years

My personal sobriety date is 9-5-1987

Active membership of AA, Al Anon, & Adult Children of Alcoholics (ACA)

Physically Fit member of 24 hour fitness, Organic vegan vegetarian,

My personal disciplines include Meditation, Walking my dogs, loving my husband of 30 years.  My goal is for my words to become kinder everyday.
Daniel Nahmod + One Powe

I have been in practice as Wits Inn Recovery and Wits End Interventions for the past several years.  I have established web sites, blogs, a You tube channel, various forms of social media, I wrote a chapter in a recently published treatment book, in process of another book project, and I am the host of a weekly CBS radio therapy talk show; all of these projects are used to generate callers looking for addiction treatment options. 949-292-2000
      I have a sober living house with 6 beds
      I work with an addiction Doctor,
      who can do out patient detox for my house guests
      I go on interventions, or contract out to interventionist that I have        trained        
      I do court appearances; write alternative sentencing plans, with case  management

      I do paid spot lights of treatment centers and clinicians on our CBS radio show

      We offer advertising opportunities on our treatment referral site and our radio site
My effort for over two decades has been to remain a student of what works and what doesn’t work in changing field of addiction recovery treatment and marketing.

In order for treatment professionals to do our good work we must keep a keen eye  focused on economic trends, the rapidly changing landscape on the internet, insurance, community and government contracts, legalities, licensing boards, community zoning, and maybe most importantly; methods of collections and bookkeeping 
My treatment theory is 12-step, Jungian, Experiential Holistic, Medically supervision
I believe Addiction Recovery is often accompanied by
Post Traumatic Stress and Adult Children of Alcoholic’s issues 

Attending Science of the Mind Practitioner classes for 4 year’s prerequisite ministerial studies with the Centers for Spiritual Living http://www.cslcv.org/classes.shtml
2010 Training in Social Media and SEO 
I am Microsoft certified by New Horizons Computer training schools of Anaheim, CA      Three times attended a previous Microsoft Office Trainings Studied a Web Master Certification program out of Yahoo of Sydney Australia

Proficiency in Quick Books, Outlook, Goldmine, HTML, and wordpress

Our main website   www.wirecovery.com     

Our word press Addiction Recovery blog https://wirecovery.wordpress.com/

You tube channel Wits End Movies http://www.youtube.com/user/witsendmovies#p/f

Radio Show http://www.beachcitiesradio.com/on-air/thursday/at-your-wits-end

Metaphysical Blog   http://wirecovery.blogspot.com/ 

U stream At Wits Inn Radio   http://www.ustream.tv/recorded/10938235

An Intervention web site   http://bedfriendly.com

Book project where my chapter Gratitude and Grace was published by New Directions http://www.newdirectionsforwomen.org/glories-of-sobriety/

Owned and operated Witts Inn Clinical Behavioral Health, Inc.
From 1990 thru 2004

Witts Inn was a wonderful addiction treatment system 
7 houses, state licensed recovery homes & sober living
Sober High School insurance contracts and Horizons continuation schools teachers
SASCA contracts, probation approved, many insurance contracts

Home Peace, Domestic Violence Programs and contracts, Monitored Visitation

Interventionist, court liaison services.

A&E intervention show, professional drug treatment interventionist, family interventio, alcoholism rehab

holistic treatment for addiction, holistic treatment of addiction, drug rehab with a gym

 

 
(C) 2007 Wits End Interventions                   Professional Intervention Services
Loriann Witte CAC 949-292-2000
               
Drug Rehab centers, California Drug treatment, Alcoholism rehab centers

Addiction Interventions, family interventions, A&E Intervention Shows

 

   

Loriann Witte CAC

Drug & alcohol intervention / Sobriety coach / Counselor

CAC Certified Alcoholism Counselor
Graduated 1989 Saddleback College, Mission Viejo, CA 
A two year certificate program
Dean’ s list Student

CPC Hospitals (Community Psychiatric)
Internship followed by 3 years of employment 
Counselor – Chemical Dependency Counter Point Program
                   – Primary Treatment = Group & 1o1 Client Care
                   –  Multi-Family Primary =History/ resentments/ Love – Forgiveness  
Family After Care – Co-coordinator and group facilitator – Al anon Support
One on One with Family members & Client after discharge
Limited to my scope of practice
                      Chemical dependency, spiritual, & career counseling
Assistant Program Director
Responsibilities: assist in JCOHA review preparation
staffing reports to director of nursing/acuity notices/ incident reports 
documentation standards adherence, Staff coverage of treatment schedule

CPC Mental Health Program’s
               Internship Mental Health Worker
               Supervision, support, activities of daily living, charting
                       5150 locked unit client on holds

As a Para-professional supervised by MFCC & Psychiatrist Treatment Team
               Groups & Activities     – 55 Plus Geriatric clients
                                                  – Children MH program
                                                  – Teen Behavioral program
              Process Group & Documentation – Multi personality women   

Owner & Co-Founder – Group Facilitator – First Step out Patient Program 
                                             with support of CPC Hospital       
         Wrote the Treatment Program – 
          3 owners MFCC, LCSW, and myself staffed the groups
          CPC kept us licensed & compliant 

Co-Owner – First Step of Laguna Beach – Program Director,
Responsibilities: State License Compliance
Pursuing and complying with Insurance Contracts
Devising a Treatment Protocol – Staffing, Scheduling the Treatment Center
Working with local MD’s  – out Patient Detox
Writing a Policy & Procedure Manual for State License
Writing an employee Manual
Maintaining Parole Contract with SASCA for Placement

Witts Inn – Co-owner, for 13 years – Recovery Homes & Sober living house
Out Patient Treatment Center
P-C1000 programs in English & Spanish
Domestic Violence Programs
Intervention
Primary Treatment / Family Treatment
Sober High School for Teens / education with treatment
Community drug testing business/ local company contract testing pre-hire
Alternative Sentencing –appearing in court & writing progress reports for probation
Hosting Professional & Community Recovery Events
My professional involvement includes:
    Attendance of education seminars, speaking and writing articles.

Spencer Recovery Center –   
    Intake, Intervention, Group process facilitator, and Aftercare Sobriety Coaching,
gave opinions and assistance in computer tech to the sales staff

    I wrote and implemented “Beyond Treatment” a multi-family discharge planning group
    to insure continuity of care and to enlist sober living interns and continued care marketing

I believe SRC is one of the leading addiction Rehab systems in the USA today
Cutting edge methods; beautiful facilities
well know and well respected company

The Basic Text of NA says:
               “The therapeutic value of one addict helping another is without parallel.”

My personal sobriety date is 9-5-1987
I became staff during my own treatment –  1st Bookkeeping – Then House Manager
– Then assistant Program Director – I stayed on in the recovery program as staff
working for Mainstream Support Group for over 2 and a half years, while in school.

I am an active member of the 12-step programs
I am a sponsor and I have a sponsor
I have started meetings and have held the secretary & other service positions many times
I have been involved in service at the local and regional levels
I held the co-chair position of Hospital & Institutions NA for 11 years
I have taken meetings into Orange County jails and Chino State Prison

Recovery is my life’s work and my personal path for 20 years
Are You at Your Wit’s End?
If so, contact Wits End Interventions at (949) 292-2000
Into Action, We Do Recover

Heroin and cocaine addiction

California Rehab and Orange County Sober Living holistic fitness

 

That’s my Mum above in the picture with me.

Loriann Witte CAC Loriann.Witte@gmail.com

      Loriann Witte CAC 949-292-2000
This is how I came up with the names for these companies
Holly Bible
Psalm 107.27  Wits End
[25] For he commandeth, and raiseth the stormy wind, which lifteth up the waves thereof.
[26] They mount up to the heaven, they go down again to the depths: their soul is melted because of trouble.
[27] They reel to and fro, and stagger like a drunken man,
                      and are at their Wits’ End
.
[28] Then they cry unto the LORD in their trouble, and he bringeth them out of their distresses.
[29] He maketh the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still.
[30] Then are they glad because they be quiet; so he bringeth them unto their desired haven
My personal story of addiction and recovery;
      My addiction started with LSD, marijuana, & alcohol use to open my mind.  Many people have searched for maturity using drugs & drinking.  Maturity came and my addiction continued to progress to meth, coke, IV heroin, and methadone maintenance.   In the end the progression went on past drug addiction into the most life defeating compulsion of all alcoholism and cigarettes.  As my body began to shut down, I blew out a heart value with an infection on my metric value; endocarditic.  Four spots on my lungs, one on the liver and one on the pancreas.  I began to die, painfully.  The party was so over; and I still couldn’t quit. 

     I left hospitals 6 times over 6 months ‘against medical advice’.   I was no longer physically or socially able to live outside of an institution for more than a few days before I was arrested and returned to yet another medical hospital.     

      Hanging on to life became more sur-real as time went on seeing lots of blood.  The spike fevers took me to visit seemingly other dimensions.  The final emergency room scene morphed into a ‘mid-Carnac’ spiritual event.  I was still living walking closer to death than life.  When the emergency room staff put a central line into my neck (as I had no other veins left to insert an IV’; something went amiss and a major blood vessel was torn.  A great quantity of blood flowed into the chest cavity and collapsed the lung. 

       A chest tube had to be inserted without anesthesia, because my blood pressure and respiration vitals were to low to allow me to be put asleep.  Blood went splat out onto the doctor & nurses who were on all sides of me holding me down.  With the splat time paused then went into very slow, soundless motion.  I felt no pain in a cool breeze as “I” found myself hovering over the bed in the intensive care unit facing my body and all of the action.  I was vaguely present and profoundly removed from my situation at the same time.  I heard or felt a voice.  You will not die, this is suffering, I have work for you to do.  You can believe this or not, I can not forget it.  My life changed from that day to this.

        Once I was moved from ICU to an indigent bed on the 5th floor of UCI hospital in Orange, CA I began to receive visitors.  The prison ministries of The Chrystal Cathedral’s New Hope outreach program came to me as a minister who asked me to be born again.  Of course I was open to a message of deliverance. 

         I am a recovering addict who believes the reason I survived and was released from darkness is because it was all about preparing for my life of love and service to my fellow addicts and their families.  I have been sober in the presence of so many perfect spirits seeking an end to their suffering. 

         I love my life.  I accept and embrace my whole life.  I forgive everybody, I forgive myself, and I forgive all past experience.  I am free, I am free. I live to forgive and I forgive to live.  I have worked in most every job one can do in rehabs, the 12 step programs, and in my beloved church.  God is good, all of the time.  call Loriann Witte CAC 949-292-2000

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